i know how it smells

looking at your arms
reminds me of its texture and even smell

fu shi gi


dont be mean
dont be idiot

dont write me off

farewell

for my own record:

my grandmother passed away on Sep 3rd.  she had been in a hospital for about a month, getting weaker day by day, that's what I heard.  I didn't go to see her before it happaned.  I think I thought we would still have some time; never imagined how little time she had.

It was my first time to attend the funeral as a grown-up (my very first time was my great grandma's when I was 10. I remember bits and pieces).  I didn't remember how it looks like.  honestly saying, I felt fear when I saw her face in a coffin.  "she looks like she's just sleeping."?  No way.  she was totally different from what i used to know.

i always think "people die especially when get old; it is not something to weep over".  i didn't know how i would feel for real.  not only sad, but various feelings that i can't even explain were inside of me.  i never knew these feelings, and they led me to tears, indeed.

i still think it is not to weep over, but it is sad. very sad.

a tiny milestone

how did you feel after all?
when it was not much of a milestone
how would you feel?
when it means much to you

ambiguous is you
someone is saying yes

i'd rather dance with you

踊ることは会話することに似ている

なんてことを言ってた僕にこのチューン。

大丈夫、わかりあえてるさ。

I'd rather dance with you

than talk with you,

so why don't we just move into the other room

There's space for us to shake,

and 'hey, I like this tune'

踊ることは大切。

edit:
impossible to watch this super cute video on this page of my blog :(
pls check out this music clip on youtube or whatever, and DANCE.
you don't wanna miss it!

womb

子宮に翻弄されるなんて
バカバカしいぜ俺の気持ち

形が見えてきたところなのに
子宮のヤローがぶち壊し

シキュウシキュウジョキョメイレイ

俺が好きなのは硬いおしり
子宮が選ぶのは柔らかいおしり

君も俺も
子宮から来たってのに

please don't

tumannai koto bakari itte
tumannai tte kuchiguse de
you just seem like dropping down somewhere i can't reach
please don't


kyoumi ga nai huri wo shite
kyoumi tte nani kamo wasure te
you just seem like getting ready to disappear from the town
please don't be an idiot

please don't defeat me

moshi mo no hanashi
toka itte----



if i were a fish, would you?

those kept you awake, those keep me here

the thoughts on my mind go faster and faster, then got winded up all toghether at the end. these are same as you once told me about. i wonder those are still stuck in and keep you awake in the night?
i told you to count sheeps to fall asleep, if it didn't work out use your magical power to make yourself sleep sound. i knew you had it. in the next morning you would be better and could make up what you missed.
now it seems i need to count my sheeps or use my magic, if i have, in order to handle all this shit in my mind.




park that car
drop that phone
sleep on the floor
dream about me

she told me

she told me her story as if she gave me her secret treasures

she also wrapped me with her jacket as if she invited me to her secret place

what if i create a tool to make a copy of what we've lost

would she be happy with that?

play with it

i smell like fish
fish smells like shampoo
shampoo smells like flower
flower smells like me

squeeze your heart to make it rain
enjoy the rainbow afterward
stand and act blankly
to push it somewhere up high

where would you go with the lost
where would you go with the lust
why wouldn't you wait for the last dance
what have you done after all